i can't believe that i sent sms again to him.... memalukan diri sendiri... :( what can i do..i missed him actually... but seem he doesnt..Oh God Poor me...
"A.... mungkin sebenernya kamu sudah ketemu orang lain ya..ada beberapa cewek sini di friend list kamu, RS is the best, dia pintar, Fluent bahasamu, jilbab, perfect!:)"
his reply: "Dont do this plz ok? she is my student and she will be married in two months"
Ya Robbi.. keliatan banget i spy him! :(( but all i can do is watching him from far... To see his facebook link and to know that he is still facebooking there is already make me happy... altgh i will never be on his friend list... on his real ID..
he said that girl is his student but, who knows he will marry her in 2 months...as he wants to marry a lot...oh God i dont know what am i thinking?!!..... :((((((((((((( i sound and look so pathetic!! i need some helps i think...help me Ya Robb............
i thought he loves me ,,,,after he left me and came again, left and came again...but now really left... :( so it is clear now it is just one side love..... :(( i will keep my love inside me.. but why do i still thinking that he is my soulmate Ya Robbi? does he know that i love him so much? when he was with someone else i kept waiting him...i saw him with that girl...prayed the happiness for they both.....even when he broke off with that girl i felt so sad.... for me as long as he is happy ...that will be my happiness too..... eventhough he ignores me often... ignoring my feeling or maybe "play" with my heart..i dont know..... satu sisi i trust him so much i am sure he is a good man... di satu sisi lagi i don't trust him maybe he is not as good as i think all this time....... oh God how can it possible trust and don't trust at same time??
A...it is clear that you are my dream that will never come true.... yesterday i still wanted to dream..but now i know myself.... it is impossible for you to love me back.. but my love is unconditional.....cinta tak bersyarat LOVE WHEN IT IS REJECTED...
A... i'm sorry if all this time i did some stupid things that made you were so upset.... i'm sorry my voice was tremble and my heart beat got faster everytime i should talk to you on phone...i am sorry for recording your voice that i could replay and listening our convo again and thought that you are the one to whom i will spend my life with.....i am sorry for retyping back our sms ... i am sorry for all my silliness ..and i am sorry for can't stop loving you...i am so sorry for everything....i think from now i will go from your life bring this love ... i wish Allah and time will heal me as soon as possible.... bye my spion man...
hosçakal sevgilim bu veda çok aci kimseye boyun egme cesur ol böyle saf böyle temiz oldugun gibi kal unutma degismeyen sadik kalir...
hosçakal sevgilim gözlerin ne güzel hadi gül son defa göreyim unutma ayrilik aglamak yalnizlik özlemek kavusmak aska dair.....
hoşçakal sevgilim hoşçakal birtanem
seni çok seviyorum hoşçakal hoşçakal...
hoşçakal sevgilim hoşçakal birtanem
seni çok seviyorum hoşçakal hoşçakal...
"Meskipun tak mungkin lagi, tuk menjadi pasanganku..namun kuyakini cinta.....KAU KEKASIH HATI" .........
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